I used to be so loyal when I was younger
Before I learned litigation, justification
Ways to to out-logic emotion as chemical reactions
Variables, products of circumstances.
There will be others, it’ll feel the same
“The one” is only ‘the one” the stuck around
Or “the one” you haven’t replaced yet.
…With a new smile, new distraction
A new body beneath you.
I used to let my heart love fully
I handed it over willingly,
Into their hands.
I let it be ripped from end to end.
I told them, “This is yours”
And let the new owner care
But even animals
Are protected from neglection.
I used to dream limitlessly
of the future. Of “us” together
Whomever was the flavor
Or new trending lover.
Playing on an endless loop in my head
My pulse keeping time.
– I took my heart out of storage today.
Blew off the collected dust and criticism.
It had atrophied, calcified
The color faded, optimism dried
There were several pieces missing,
Some hung by merely a string.
It was covered in graffiti.
Names of various unknown claiming territory.
Raised scars, discolored and tender.
It was damaged, lost worth
-He said, “Give that to me”
And carried the heart carefully
Gently, both hands cradling
The way one tends to a small bird with broken wings.
I can’t remember how to fly…
I told him he didn’t want it
That he’d hardly known me a week-
…To be continued….